Well here I am in Nashville, TN. This is an incredible feeling. I arrived here and got all my paperwork done the weekend before I came. Checkout (a process that normally takes about 2 full days) took me about 2 hours and I had my check before 12:00. Now I am just free to hang out with whoever I want and just talk about what I plan on doing next.
To be honest it's the point in my life where I need to start creating long term goals. The problem is that I still have no clue which direction I want to be in. I was talking with a career counselor here at Southwestern and he asked me what type of goals I did have. The first one was that I want to make six figures. He immediately why I chose six figures. I told him I didn't really have a reason other than the fact that I did not want to ever allow finances to hold me back. We talked about more job opportunities and where I should put in my resumé, but after I left he really sparked my thinking. Why do I only want six figures? Why not more? Then I realized that the real reason I wanted that money was not for the actual dollars but more for the idea of security. Which leads me to another rabbit trail of thinking.
When you are in the middle of something be it school, a job, relationship, whatever it is, your mind can play so many tricks on you. Your perspective can get lost and you can twist the reality of your circumstances to allow yourself to be smothered in self-pity or just plain selfishness. Obviously what I'm talking about is the blogging that has occurred over the past three months. If someone read this blog I would be ashamed of myself because of all the difficulties I brought up. The truth is the job is hard, but not to the extent that I made it out to be. There are so many words I would like to say about Southwestern and it's a very tough decision of leaving or trying to corporate recruit full time. There are ups and downs to any decision that I will make. I know that whatever I choose I can be successful and enjoy it, the problem is committing to one of those paths. I wouldn't trade anything for the experience, knowledge, and friends I have gained over the last three summers. It feels like I get 5 years of hardships slammed into 12 weeks so I get to grow faster. It's an awesome experience and I will be sad to leave the bookfield.
There are more ideas I would like to convey but at the moment I think it is all still processing. I'll get back to this later.
