Why worry?

Well week two is over so there's nothing I can do to change it. I shouldn't think about it anymore! Today was awesome, I got to sit down with Travis and really get to bottom of why I'm not working my hardest. I'm here, I'm going through the motions, but my mind and my heart are totally thinking about being other places. I want to be on the beach, in Tennessee, in Kentucky, anywhere but Thief River Falls, Minnesota. I realized that this kind of attitude was just focusing on all the negative things and therefore my actions were suffering from them.

Travis explained it like Asbury College. There are some crazy rules, and if you focus only on the negative ones like no dancing, required chapel, curfew, and other things of that nature then yes the college isn't very fun. However if you simply accept those things and then turn to what those things are actually doing for you like spiritual vitality and academic excellence, haha then it gets better. My freshman was just me complaining about how I didn't like it and how I wanted to transfer. I didn't have many close friends because I wouldn't allow myself to get close. I was what was keeping others away. The same thing is happening now. God is calling me to work hard this summer, to be an example for Matt and the other first years, to fully rely on him to take care of me financially, physically and emotionally. All I have to do is go out and try to actually help families and other people and forget about myself. God already knows everything that's going to happen to me this summer and his plans are in my best interests. So why not go out and embrace those things and enjoy this week to the best of my ability. I'm going to be praying more and looking for positive things all throughout the day. Perhaps I'll write a blog about them.

Today was a great day for learning. I'm going to start enjoying the time I have here instead of wishing it all away. Pray for me this week because this change will not come easily or quickly. However, if I keep persisting success becomes inevitable. Just like knocking on doors. Peace out.

I was looking for a picture for this blog and found this other blog. It's a great summary.

Some days are harder than others

Sometimes I don't want to go to work. Some days I really don't want to walk across this bridge. And some days I don't even want to get out of bed

There are days when I have trouble with everything

But every day is progress. Every interaction is important

It doesn't matter if some steps are harder than others as long as I keep making them. I know I'm headed in the right direction ;)

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