photography

is my anti-drug. haha just kidding.

I really feel as if I can use photography as a get away though. Everything that is stressful or troublesome is suddenly washed away when I just drive somewhere and start taking pictures. All that matters is that my mind goes into creative mode and i just start to soak in my immediate surroundings. That's the great part about it. No one really sees what I see until that little button gets pushed. I wish I could just be invisible and take pictures of anything and everything. Don't let your mind get crazy, you know what I mean. I just want people to be normal and for it never to seem awkward to take a picture. I have discovered that most people enjoy their picture being taken because they know it is part a memory collection that they do not have to work on. I'll just upload it to Facebook and it's line an online scrapbook for them.

I really don't mind doing it, but sometimes you only want to show people the good pictures. If it so happens that you don't get any then you have in a sense failed for that shoot. That's the frustrating part and that is also what keeps me from taking pictures all the time. Here's a connection I just made. I am known for throwing frisbee and for playing music anywhere and everywhere. I love those things. I know that I have the equipment to play the music and the skill to not make myself look like a fool throwing the frisebee. Therefore, I feel confident to do them in front of anyone and to share my music with everyone. I would love it if my photography skills could reach that level of security. I want to know that when I press the button, the outcome will be great or at least acceptable. I want it to stand out and to say something about who I am and what I see. Actually that last sentence was getting too deep but I don't want to delete it.

Anyway, life is good if we want it to be. Some days it doesn't make sense why people choose not to enjoy their day. Our circumstances will happen no matter what, but how we react to those makes the wheels in our life turn.

Has it really been that long?

Wow so I guess I went through quite a drought huh? Sorry. Not really, but maybe a little.

I don't really know what to talk about. I was going to talk about my relationship problems, but decided not to. Instead I'll explore what I have learned about myself. I discovered today that I am not a good coach...at least in frisbee. I know what you're thinking, and yes I do loooove frisbee, but I have no idea what to tell my team. I put together an intramural frisbee team that has a lot of potential, but many of them have never played before, so they do not really know where to run, or how the motion of the game really works. We did do surprisingly well even if the 6-2 score did not show it. Our scoring opportunities were fairly high and our movement of the frisbee was a little rushed, but overall not too bad at all.
I hope i never have to face this situation ^

I did feel really bad that I had nothing very encouraging or inspirational to say to my team. I feel like many of them may not have shared in the enjoyment of the game like I do when I play. I don't know how to send the messages and feelings that I have when I play. I just love it. I also did not play well today. I dropped a pass in the endzone, and made some very stupid careless mistakes.

Oh well there's always tomorrow, no seriously we have a game tomorrow and the next day. Hope that satisfied your blog appetite.