Owl city

So my friend Jack showed me this band called Owl City. They are so awesome! They're laid back electronic style just goes well with whatever you are doing at the time. For example, after work tonight at about 11:45 I went on a run. Yep it was so nice outside and I just needed to get away for a while. Kind of like relieving pressure and stress by doing something that literally created tired feelings which lead to relaxation. It was so peaceful and perfect running in the dark. I felt alone but it was a good kind of alone. I think I've been craving that time all week and I finally gave it to myself. I also went to the tennis courts and just sat. I wanted to listen and hear enlghtening words that would confirm my actions I life. No obvious messages came but I understand and accept some things better now. I'm ready for a new chapter I suppose.

Asbury Peace

I really got a sense of peace this weekend.

For my fall break this weekend, I went to the University of Tennessee at Knoxville. As you may have read in past blogs, that is where I longed to go. I wanted to get the freedom of the real world, without real consequences. I wanted to have the typical get drinking and partying experiences that so many other people have.
Well this weekend, all that changed. I visited some friends that were having those exact experiences. The more I hung out with them the more I realized that what they were doing was definitely not my scene. I just felt so out of place. While all of them are extremely kind and cool, I just did not want to be a part of their drinking and really their lifestyle.
So, as hard as it may be to say this, I'm glad that God led me to Asbury. He knew that if I did experience those things, then after it was all said and done, I would have realized that I just wasted four years of my life. Through this simple weekend, he gave me a glimpse of what i'm "missing".

NOTHING.

Everything I need is right here. God has finally let me accept that, and it is truly a great feeling. Also I think it needs to be clear that i'm not saying what they do is wrong, because I do plenty of things that are considered wrong also. I just feel that their lifestyles are not what God has in store for me. I hold no grudges against UT or any of the people there, I just know now that God wants me at Asbury.

P.S. I almost died trying to take these pictures so enjoy them...:)

Big Girls Don't Cry

Haha. Funny title I know, and maybe not funny as in haha, but maybe as in wierd.

I woke up this morning with so much peace and serenity (hence the title, that's what it made me think of). I just felt like I'm where I'm supposed to be with the people I should be with. That doesn't mean I can't have friends in other places, just that for now, these are the ones that should be in my life a lot. I do miss my friends Joey and Macie, but I feel like this weekend made us even closer, if that's possible.

I talked with my RD last night just about some things going on with school and how my relationships with my parents were. For me it always helps to talk to someone who doesn't really know you, but knows exactly what you are going through. He or she can present a side of the story that you may not see and give you great advice as to what you should do. It's also just nice to be able to say what you want to say and tell someone all the crap that you feel is pushing you down. In the end, most of that "crap" is stuff that isn't that big of a deal, but still it's nice to be able to tell someone about it and have them truly listen and understand what you are saying.
The End.