Summer is here

Well my summer has begun and Southwestern is kicking my butt. It's a good thing though. I feel as if I am going through this really tough week to have an awesome week next week. I have met some awesome people and the first years out here are doing great. My farmer's tan is showing quite nicely and there is kid here from Michigan that plays on the Ultimate club team at U of M. Obviously this is great news for me and his throw is soooo smooth.

I have a funny story about a girl getting my number while I was showing books to her dad. kind of awkward. I might have to tell it tomorrow though because i'm exhausted right now.

A watch.

So I needed a watch for the summer. Luckily mom has has a ridiculous collection of Swatch watches and gave me one for Christmas a few years ago. It was actually about a decade ago because when found it in the bottom of my cabinet I read the outer face. It reads, "Sydney 2000: Olympic Games." It's a cool watch though. At least I think so. The real purpose of this blog was to talk about the ticking. It is so strange to hear it at random times. I'll be resting my head on my hand and think to myself, "What the heck is that noise?" I like it though. It reminds me that my time matters and it is going to move no matter what I decide to do. So here I go off to another summer of door-to-door sales. As strange as it seems, I plan on learning a lot this summer. Videos will follow as well as some regularity to my blog.

After the summer I am free. I literally have nothing to do. That rules.

It's Here!

Wow, the last official day of college. It's mind-blowing. Actually, as I was talking to David Brenneman we realized that it really didn't feel like the end yet. It's so crazy just to take a minute and think back at EVERYTHING that has happened. So much! Here's the good news. Do I remember how much money I spent? The naps I took? The grades I made freshman year in English? No way! I don't remember any of that, all I know is that I have awesome friends and awesome relationships. I feel ready for the world. I'm honestly trying to embrace this change as much as possible. It does me no good to sit around and wish I could stay here longer.

Am I nervous? Heck yea! Do I care? Heck no! I'm just trying to imagine what life will be like after this summer. Where will I be? What do I want to do? Who will I meet? There are so many questions just waiting to get answered and I can't wait. Thank you Asbury for all that you have given me, but now it's time for me to peace out.

Sem Título

Ok so I don't know why but for some reason I really wanted to go on a run tonight. I had just struggled to finish a two page Spanish paper (sad I know). So little of my life involves physical challenges besides the occasional frisbee, floor hockey, or softball game. After sending off my paper, I put on some shorts and took off. I was actually quite impressed with myself. I ran for 3.75 miles at a 7.29 pace. It was the perfect temperature outside and a great way to just release some freaking endorphins.

The past few days have brought upon a lot of thinking as far as life after college goes. Just imagine this for a minute; two weeks from now my life will be totally different. I'll still be the same Holland Hames, but the environment and activities will not be. As I talked with my roommates this afternoon about leaving on the same Saturday that I graduate really sent me into disbelief. It's hard to imagine not signing up for classes or checking CPO. I am excited at the same time. In Senior Seminar we read a book called, Hit the Ground Running. The book is about all sorts of different companies and their leadership or management styles. It has everything from Smuckers to Mohawk Industries (for all of my GA friends it's that carpet manufacturing place with the little Indian in Dalton,GA. I'm pretty sure you pass by it.) He talks about embracing the change. I've been trying desperately to change the way I think. All my life it's like I'm moving backwards.

When I went to Michigan a few weeks ago we uncovered what had been holding me back from really succeeding during the summer. I told him that I was so worried about repeating my same results from the previous summer. Boom: there was the problem. My life and my decisions in life have all been made based on previous results. It's time for my mind to be thinking about the future and about what I want out of life. Travis described it as me walking backwards and continually running into problems because I'm so caught up in what is behind me. I never forgive myself for making mistakes. I just let them follow me around and keep tripping over them. I know that is the reason why I hold myself back from getting good grades, working hard during the summer, maintaining relationships, or whatever it is. Something inside my brain tells me that I don't deserve to forget what I've done. It limits me to repeating the same mistakes because I've given myself permission to do so in the past. So what have I been working on? Forgetting things that happened or mistakes I've made. It's probably the most difficult thing I've ever done, but it's so important because all of the mistakes flood into all areas of my life. Anyway this was a revelation to me and I feel like typing it all out helps solidify my findings.

whew, it feels good to talk that out. I feel like I could go into more detail, but I'm tired and want to go to sleep. Also, check out this blog because it has some amazing pictures.
http://blog.fotoalternativa.net/

I did it on purpose

Yeah that's right! Nearly two months without blogging. Actually, I didn't do it on purpose I just didn't have much to share. Now that I have a smart phone and have been using Twitter, it sort of pacifies my need to write blogs. It's like chewing nicotine gum instead of smoking a real cigarette. Ok, not really, but anyway.

I'm back for now. I wanted to write about the frustration of the unknown. I know that God is in control and that everything will work out, but when you honest to goodness have no freaking clue what you will be doing at the end of the summer, it's kind of scary. I know I will be able to do pretty much anything I want as long as I have the money. That shouldn't be a problem provided I work hard all summer. Also, there are some choices that need to be made now that I just don't what in the world to do with. There are things I want to do, even though I know it probably isn't a good idea. They could wait, but what if I wait too long? Did I miss my chance? Will it ever come by again? I'm sure it will in some form or fashion, but what kind of fun could I have had if I had done it. Anyway, six weeks is all I have left at my Asbury career. It's a bit sad, but refreshing at the same time.

I thought I would have more to say, but for now there is nothing. I am just sitting in Fisher F trying to start on homework, but obviously I didn't make it. Going on spring break also made me realize what cool friends I had. I met a few new people over the course of the week and I'm really satisfied with the people in my group. We all seem to really care about each other and honestly want our relationships to stay healthy. It's really cool. Weak blog, but IDC.

A New Way to Win

The other day I began thinking about why I wanted to buy new things all the freaking time. Most of you who know me, which is everyone who read this blog probably, know that I have things that are top of the line. It's kind of an expensive habit. So why?

When it comes to sports, I can play them but I'm not really great at them. The same is true in almost every other aspect of my life. I feel like I have talent with the areas like music, sports, running and things like that but again I cannot really be the best at any of these. This is mainly because I'm not willing to commit to the amount of work it takes to really become the BEST. So how I use buying brand new things as a way to be the best at something. I can have the newest iPod or newest Mac or newest SLR, for a little while, but as soon as a newer one comes out I lose again. Hence the reason why I want to constantly buy things. This could be totally untrue, but it seems to make sense to me right now.

Also, let's talk about what I'm doing right now. I'm sitting at Don Jacobs, a Honda dealership getting my brakes replaced.

"It will take about three hours. Do you want to wait?"
"Sure."

So here I am. I woke up at 8...maybe 8:15...maybe 8:20 and am now waiting for three hours. Ok time to go. Peace

Photography Comments

Now maybe it's genuine when people say that your picture, "really has some great colors" or is a, "great composition," but seriously I think I would rather have people tell me what they don't like specifically than to give me some generic thing like that. Ok so maybe I'm just being stupid and over reacting a wee little bit. Honestly though I like taking pictures and I like feedback, but when people try to act smug and intelligent by telling me that my picture is a great composition it makes me want to throw up. Anyway, my bed is calling and soon I'll be back to Asbury. I can't wait.

It snowed today, barely. And it was 15 degrees tonight. When I pulled out of my driveway it seriously sounded like my windshield was going to crack and shatter right before my eyes. It didn't luckily.

The Droid rules even though they are about to come out with a Google phone called the Nexus One.

That is all.